I've Been Waiting So Long For You 

I feel this pressure to live in the present. In the present, I will find happiness and joy and everything I ever wanted. Or that's what the self-help books say. I read them. I believe them. That there is an answer. It is easy, you just have to show up for the moment you are in. 

 

And Sometimes I wonder why would there be tenses if we were meant to live in the present ALL the time? I hate the present. And spending time in the past is a form of torture. Remembering what could have been and how we all took what life we had for granted. If we had only known. I am stealing comfort in the uncertainty of the future as I wait for it to come.